So today I went out and bought the ingredients I need to make a lemon meringue pie for hide's birthday. <3 I still need to get pink decorating sugar so I can use the spider stencil I found online around Halloween and make a pink spider on top of the pie. XD But otherwise I've got everything. =D I was actually going to make a cake instead, but then I had a dream a few nights ago where I'd made a lemon meringue pie, and hide was eating a slice, and he said he really liked it and that I should make it for his birthday. XD

I also went to Book Off to see if I could find a Yoshitaka Amano art book I wanted to buy, but no such luck. D= They did, however, have a bunch of X Japan and hide CDs in stock. =D So I bought King of Psyborg Rock Star (I had the mp3s of it on my Desktop computer, but not a hard copy of the CD) and the live recordings from X Japan's On The Verge of Destruction live. =D

Now I just need to make a drawing for hide (or finish working on that one I posted a while back XD) and I'm all set for Sunday~! <3

Edit- Also, got the Sims 3 expansion pack (World Adventures) today. It's awesome so far! =D

sjdkaa Lol Girugamesh <333 The intro bit at the beginning ahahha xD They're so jokes <3 And awww Ryo looks so adorable. He has such a baby face, I love it so much. And I'm glad to see he hasn't died of a lip infection or something xD

But argh I'm in such a bad mood. Stupid people and shit DX

BUT! I think I've done pretty well in my Spanish coursework! Though I need to start learning my French and all I have in my head is Spanish >: Wish me luck please lol. And I have Science mocks too and IT'S IN THE HALL APPARENTLY? That really scares me xD Even if I'm far away from people, it's so much nicer to do it in the classroom cause it's not a fatoff room with millions of people, it's just my class and stuff.

How were you guys' days?

~Bai u kaiz.

I meant to make a post about this actually, so talk about perfect timing. XD

But yeah, I definitely get that a lot. D= I used to think that getting married and having kids was something I -had- to do some day, and that when the time came I would be magically ready for it somehow. But now that I know better, I've changed my perspective quite a bit. And in some cases, nothing has changed, but I'm able to admit my thoughts much more freely on these issues now.

Regarding relationships, I think not only is there pressure to be in one but also pressure to be in a certain -kind- of relationship. Namely a heterosexual one. Unfortunately, a lot of people still haven't accepted LGBTs yet. Not just here in America, but the world. I just heard this incredibly disturbing story about how in Uganda, they're trying to pass an "Anti-Homosexuality" bill, which among other things would make it legal to KILL someone who was suspected of being LGBT. Wtf humanity.

Honestly, in a way, doesn't a relationship between two men or two women make more sense? I mean, it seems like they would relate to each other better than two people of the opposite sex. Then again, gender is a construct of society (and therefore it's another societal pressure that wasn't included here but that I could write a whole lot about, but I'll save that for another time), and I know not all men are the same and neither are all women. XD"

But still, you hear about so many straight marriages that end badly. Just look at the widely publicized messy divorce Jon and Kate went through (never watched their show, but the headlines about their divorce were friggin EVERYWHERE for WEEKS, argh). Not to mention the recent Tiger Woods issue. And remember Britney Spears' wedding in Vegas?

As for personal experience, my parents have been together for over 20 years, and my grandparents on both sides were married for over 50 years, but they're the exceptions to the rule in my family. My mom's three sisters and my dad's sister (in other words, my aunts) have all been divorced at least once.

Now I'm not saying all straight marriages are bad and that it's impossible to find happiness in one. Again, look at my parents and grandparents. But I think that if society put less pressure on people to be in relationships, we'd have fewer people rushing into something only to end up getting divorced. And if there was more tolerance for LGBT people, they'd be able to not have to worry about being discriminated against based on who they fall in love with and decide to marry. And yes, there have been cases of closeted gays and lesbians marrying someone of the opposite gender, only to end up either divorcing them after they come out, or keeping that part of themself a secret for their whole life.

As for the kids issue, well, I've always been kind of scared of the idea of being pregnant. I mean, I've always been self-conscious about my stomach, so I don't need anything to make it look bigger kthnx. Especially since I have enough trouble losing weight as it is. Then there's labor, which nearly everyone says hurts like hell. And there's also the possibility of dying during childbirth, and not being able to sleep because of the baby crying at odd hours, and having to change dirty diapers...

Selfish reasons aside, there are also more important reasons I'd rather not have kids. For one thing, we have a bit of an overpopulation problem right now. Why contribute to that? Especially when there's people like Octomom and that one couple who's been popping out a baby every year for 20 years now. Ick. Think of all the extra resources being wasted on these families-that-could-fill-a-whole-restaurant when there's people living out on the streets starving every day because they can barely find enough food for themselves.

Also, look at all the kids out there in foster care who were probably abandoned for some reason or another and need a loving home. Brad Pitt, Angelina Jolie, and Madonna haven't adopted all of them you know. =P So if I do ever have kids, I would much rather adopt a kid before I even think about having any of my own.

The other thing is that not everyone is cut out to be a parent honestly. I've seen so many cases of parents being horrible to their kids or just plain not caring enough about them, and I think these are probably mostly people who felt like they "had" to have children but didn't really want to. Or who didn't realize what a big responsibility it is.

Anyway, back to the societal pressure thing, I've told my parents and close friends about my decision to not have kids, and it's usually met with "Oh, well that's your decision", or "Oh, well I still want to have a kid some day". In other words, I can tell they're still kinda disappointed with my thoughts on this. D= I mean, I'm not saying everyone has to agree with me. After all, if everyone stopped having kids then eventually we'd have the opposite problem and there'd be no people left. XD" I just don't think everybody should have to get married and have kids and have a job and live up to mainstream society's picture of an "ideal" life either. Nor should they feel like they have to live up to that or else they're doing something wrong.

Okay disregard my last post. XD I GOT A TICKET AFTER ALL YAY. =D

Ended up going for the slightly-lower-priced ones since apparently they were out of the higher-priced-yet-better-seats ones. XD" But still, I got a ticket~!

Yay for being persistent and for the fact that it seems the main reason things weren't working before was because of a site glitch apparently rather than tickets actually selling out. XD"

FUCK.

Muse presale sold out in THREE FUCKING MINUTES and I didn't get my ticket even though the site said I had a ticket reserved, wtf.

FML.

Ahhh I'm not sure if it's lj or gmail, but I always seem to get comments and replies to stuff on lj, I always get the notifications a day later or something? It's so annoying dkjskdf

I only really wanted to post because HOLY SHIT I GOT A* FOR MY ENGLISH COURSEWORK ON JEKYLL AND HYDE 8DDD I'm so surprised I managed to get it omfg dfsjk I wrote like, 5 pages worth of stuff though but still! but yeah A*! But I won't be able to get A* for my whole english thing though because for my drama thing, I only got an A and shit... I think it works like that? it does for other subjects anyways xD

I need to spend my whole day learning my Spanish c/w DX

~bai u kaiz. shit school dsihj

To start off with, I blame both cadkitten and a song by Lady Gaga called Bad Romance for this story.

So, with that explained, enjoy!

Also note, this has not been beta read yet, anyone interested, let me know, I would like to post it elsewhere if I can.


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Muse finally announced the first six dates and locations for their US tour~! They're coming to NYC on March 5th, 2010 and playing at Madison Square Garden~! =DDDDDDDDD Perfect timing because my spring break this year starts on March 9th, so I'll still be here in NYC and I probably won't have much (or any) homework to worry about, yay. XD

Presale starts tomorrow morning. I am SO THERE OMG.

You guys know how long I've wanted to see Muse live, right? Riiight? =DDDDDD And how they're like one of the few non-Jrock bands I get this fangirly about? XD So yeah, uber psyched right now.

Ah, everything's so much better when you have an awesome concert to look forward to. <33

DO WANT.

I've wanted to get a hide calendar for a really long time, but it's so expensive. ;_; What should I dooo? D=

Speaking of hide, only six days until his birthday~! <3 I need to find a good lemon recipe and get a drawing ready. Hope I have enough time between all the homework I have to do. XD"

Haha lol~ I went out with Justyn and Alice yesterday. I FOUND A FUCKING MARMITE SHOP 8DDD

It was dry but still fun. W/ez xDDD

Tonight I'm really not going to be online AT ALL because stuff is going to distract me and I need to focus on my spanish and french coursework along with my other classes. In fact, I may not be online much this week at all lol.

Idk why I'm telling you guys this xDDD Time for school now omfgggg

~Bai u kaiz.